Patience is a Killer

I have this issue where I know something greater is going to happen to/for me but I don’t know when or what. I’m doing all I can and I’m fulfilling all my requirements the best I can but still, I wait. I have a few ideas of how things might turn out and I make myself all crazy trying to guess which way things are going to go. The truth is that I’m scared for one of the possible outcomes, I hope for another and all the while I know nothing at this point is up to me. As I mentioned in my last post the atonement is amazing and it solves all problems, if you let it.

In all the important decisions in our lives, what is most important is to do the right thing. Second, and only slightly behind the first, is to do the right thing at the right time. – Dallin H. Oaks.

That’s what brings me here, what’s all this about the Lords timing? I guess I can’t rush the universe to do my bidding can I? Even if I could it wouldn’t turn out to be what I wanted. What I do know is there is always a larger plan and I don’t get to know the details and that makes life interesting. So really all I can do is sit back and wait to see what happens. What does sitting back and waiting cause? Anxiety and fear and a whole lot of stress but there is a way to help and that is simply giving up the idea that I have any control in the situation and stop worrying about trying to insert my own will. All that can be done is stand back and watch what happens. In the mean time I’ll focus on what I need to be doing for myself.

There have been a few moments in the past weeks where I’ve felt completely alone. Even as friends were talking to me and hanging out with me I was alone. I know I was supposed to feel that because it’s all part of the plan and I know that I’ve never actually been alone, ever. Even when nobody is around I’m not alone, I have a big brother watching out for me. Sometimes you just need to feel what life is like without Him there though, or perhaps you have to realize that He’s carrying you. Whatever is happening, patience is difficult to master. I have a long way to go too.

In conclusion, I don’t have a point. I’m just saying that patience isn’t any fun, but I know the result is worth waiting for because when you force things to happen against the greater plan it never works out for the best, but sit back and let God do His thing and that’s when the real magic happens.